My 2021

Friska Sianturi
5 min readFeb 5, 2022
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Wow, 2022. Really excited for this year and it is like a dream how fast time goes by. I think about my 2021 that there were a lot of things that came and went, started and stopped, shone and dimmed….

In 2021 I mostly spent my time at work. I graduated in 2020 and started my job in September 2020 and I can say that 2021 is my first year of a job as well. So I will be talking more about what I felt during that moment

Every single people, of course, have their own experience. They might have pitty experience or great or something but whatever that I believe the differences will make a story in our life. So these are what I was feeling or thinking

  • Tired

I can say this is the most common feeling that everyone feels while doing the job. Moreover at the beginning of the carrier. Fresh graduates usually don’t have enough skill to do something well and fast. we still need to be sharpened by the time and the experiences. So I am aware that most of us spend more time learning new technology that we use in our company, finding out what happened, or doing the same things several times again and again so we can understand what really happens. since I think this is the moment. This is the time for learning. But you know tired is fine, complaining is fine it just wants to say emmm come on…. let’s take a bit rest. And you will be fine again

  • Transition

The transition is not only in this time but I think it happens in most of the moments in our life when we wanted to go to elementary school from kindergarten to middle school from elementary school, to high school from middle school, and many other transitions. But according to me transition to start the first job from university is “something”. In university when we did not do our task then the impact would be for ourselves but once we are in the industry the feel is different if we don’t do our task then it will impact the team, timeline, and our self of course. And the other transition is about our growth. In university when we learn something new, then we would kind of complain. Say these and those and yeah at university we would probably have the same friends who sigh the same things and sometimes when we think about our growth, we would think that our lecture, parents or friends were responsible for it (I know, a bit childish but I think it happens) but once we are in the industry we must be “an adult”. we can’t delegate our growth to anyone.

  • Self-aware

My point for this is admitting. when we do mistakes or really good things. I by myself frequently don’t want to admit my mistakes. I was thinking my mistakes were ashamed. Not only that but I thought that people would think I was not a good one as well because of my mistakes. but time teaches me “yoo .. this is me”. My mistakes and my achievement are part of me. Then I thought again about mistakes, admit what I have done and determined whether that’s right or wrong and finally say to myself “Fris you are wrong in this situation”. Once I admit it I can receive myself, then suggest my myself hence if similar things happen to me I know what I have to do in a wiser way

  • Care

I found so many people who care a lot in my teams when the first time I came there they thought me sincerely, set a meeting if I didn’t understand something, response to me when I asked, and even hit me up just for asking I had any obstacles or not. I met many kind people and just want to share what I have received with other people because I believe it is really valuable and how much we are helped with the care

  • Speak your mind

Do you agree that telling people about what we are thinking is kind of hard? Imagine you are in this situation your friend tell a problem and they need input and at the same time you have an idea in your mind how to solve it. you want to tell it but the fear is more dominant. You are afraid about the judgment you might hear after saying your words or probably you think that your idea does not relate to what your community is talking about. Yeah, you define yourself by random things in your mind meanwhile other people don’t even talk about it. But I think as time goes by it will shape our self there will be times when we want to say our words because we disagree about the result. Let’s think about why we have to speak our mind? in my opinion, we don’t want to stay in the wrong situation. if by our idea something can be better why don’t give it a try? I know it is really hard for the first time but once we have tried we will learn how to improve. for the first try, we might say our idea is unstructured, stuttered, and messy, but day by day we will be aware of something that we did before and yeah, we already made improvements. so just start to say your words

  • Listening

I am not sure this situation happens to many people or not Sometimes I am stubborn and think that my idea is the best one but in fact we know that there is always something better than ours. In this period I often care about a meeting when I was taking but once I was done well I did not care anymore. Bad Habit. Yeah, it is. Many chances hit me a lot. I heard there are many more wonderful ideas than mine and it has me aware “Well Fris this is not right, let’s listen to others”. And I think the things that made me aware are many better people than me, smarter than me, have more experiences than me but they still respect other ideas. Then I try to listen to others, try to understand what they want to say, curious about their mind and I can’t deny it gives a wonderful feeling. Respect.

  • Validation

Validation…. That’s the reason why we search for something. We need validation about our current job whether we want to do that in our entire life, validation about our environment whether it can help us grow or not. validation about our habit whether it leads us to be somebody or not. validation about what we have experienced whether people get it as well or not. and there are more other validations. I believe we often think that am I on the right path or not? Well, I am still in that situation as well. It’s okay to make validation but don’t validate ourselves with other people. Everyone has their journey. Everyone has different background and job. So just validate ourselves with another version of ourselves. Don’t make wrong validation. Well if you did it. That’s okay just ask yourself again, does it get you fine or not instead?

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